We continue to receive beautiful emails of men searching for answers who have found GAMMA through a friend, a therapist or a web search. These men had, for the most part, not attended a GAMMA meeting when they wrote us. This was their first contact with GAMMA. They represent the eternal struggle of confusion, pain and desire that often brings a man to his first GAMMA meeting:
"Hi - to begin, thank you to those who volunteered to host and form this group. I found this group because I'm married and have a wonderful family, but have been very attracted to men my whole life. At 40, I've come to feel I've missed something important in my life and a growing sense of being misplaced. I'm a bit hesitant to explore a relationship with a man due to my loyalty to my family, but my confusion and desire has cast much if my life into conflict.
I'd welcome learning more about this support group and how it works. Thanks for you assistance."
"After many month of often exceedingly difficult therapy, my wife said that she understands my ambivalence around sexual orientation. She has encouraged me to explore and connect with the gay community and figure out if this is where I want to be. I have had no connection with the gay community. I have been closeted within myself. I want to step out of my comfort zone but I have no idea how to do this, where to go, what to do. We have been married for many years and have a grown son. As I contemplate this I feel like a nervous adolescent. I am interested in attending GAMMA meeting and would like to learn more."
"Just wanted to say hello. I am a gay married male with a son. I am not out of the closet to my wife and am afraid to do so. I do not want to ruin our relationship and risk losing my son. I was wondering if other men have similar experiences. Would GAMMA be the right place to discuss these topics?"